A letter to Death

Dear Dear, 

I've been hearing that people are afraid of you. You sneak up on them and steal them. You tease  

people who are sick, the old and the young. You are always watching everyone. I've heard that you

 gamble with God for the souls of the living. You lie. You cheat. You always think you can win. But

 seem to times where you get really close to getting a souls and then you lose it. Sometimes you lose.

 Sometimes you win. But you see, this game of yours isn't going to end. As long as you and God are 

both around, this isn't over. Some people may be afraid of you, but not me. I know that you'll find me 

someday, but today is not that day. 

Sinceraly, 

Me

The fears I can't conquer

for a long time i was never scared of anything.   

 

     or at least i didn't think i was.  

          but then i got older. i read things and thought different things. and things happened that happened to me before. and suddenly, i was scared of everything 

 . . .of forgetting a day of my life 

of waking up where i hadn't fallen asleep-not like sleep walking 

not of the dark, but what's IN it 

of being lost in the woods at night and not knowing what anything is 

of being blind-like the lady in Wait Until Dark 

of learning from a doctor that i'm dying 

of losing everything that matters most to me  

of not being able to forget something you need to

of being completely alone and not recovering from a seizure  . . . 

and that's not all. the list goes on and on. a handful of these i have actually experienced. 

and i could  never wish them upon my worst enemy.  

not that i "wouldn't" wish it upon someone else, or that i "shouldn't", but that i couldn't ever.

 

 

      

 

wanderlust

i don't know if i could really tell you what its like to be human. i haven't known anything else, so i couldn't tell you what that's like. but i'll try.  

 being human is being afraid, falling and scraping your knees, getting frustrated and crying. it's realizing that you aren't alone-ever. but also being completely alone.

it's having internal struggles that never seem to end.  

being human is being in pain, having medical emergencies, and being in situations that are less than ideal. some things you just can't control. try as you might, but maybe Someone Else has a better plan for you. 

being human is that feeling of your stomach dropping. the fluttery feeling when you're uneasy about something but you don't know what it is. how you're antsy and just can't keep still. that's human. 

 human is having that gut determination to do something and never give up. being human is giving up too. it's realizing that you have three choices in life: to give up, give in, or give it all you've got.  

human is the feeling of  wanderlust-having a strong impulse to wander and travel, wishing to be somewhere you can never go.

#different

So that's what they call a family
Mother daughter father son
Guess that everything you heard about is true
So you ain't got any family
Well, who said you needed one
Ain't ya glad nobody's waiting up for you
When I dream on my own
I'm alone but I ain't lonely
For a dreamer nights the only time of day
When the city's finally sleeping and my thoughts begin to stray
And I'm on the train that's bound for Santa Fe
And I'm free like the wind
Like I'm gonna live forever
It's a feeling time can never take away
All I need's a few more dollars
And I'm outta here to stay
Dreams comes true, yes they do
In Santa Fe
Where does it say you gotta live and die here
Where does it say a guy can't catch a break
Why should you only take what your given
Why should you spend your whole life livin'
Trapped where there ain't no future even at 17
Breaking your back for someone else's sake
If the life don't seem to suit ya how bout a change of scene
Far from the lousy headlines and the deadlines in between
Santa Fe, are you there
Do you swear you won't forget me
If I found you would you let me come and stay
I ain't getting any younger
and before my dying day
I want space, not just air
Let them laugh in my face
I don't care
Save my place
I'll be there
So that's what they call a family
Ain't ya glad you ain't that way
Ain't ya glad you've got a dream called
Santa Fe

Read more:  Newsies - Santa Fe Lyrics | MetroLyrics 

I felt like this may be a little bit different. The world of Newsies is one of my favorite. And this is where I'd rather be right now.